Ok, so I've come out of hiding now that this week is just about over. I just got through reading Mark's latest blog and it help me put things into perspective. Might as well write about it, huh?
This week for me has been one of the most difficult weeks in a long time. All of my emotions bouncing around in my head have made me feel somewhat schizophrenic! (No offense to my crazy friends out there.....) I have tried to hold my head high, but people keep calling, texting, emailing me asking me if I finished and every time I said the word "NO", I felt like a piece of me died again and again.
So today, I finally looked at my dog and decided to take him for a walk. What a beautiful cool day!!! 77 degrees and not a cloud in the sky. CJ and I went for a two mile walk. And you know what? It was great to "just start over". There I was admiring God's creations and enjoying the weather and there was CJ doing his business looking up at me like he wanted some privacy.....
Finally, I decided to give the jogging thing a try. Ok. Not bad. Not too sore and not too many twinges of pain. Maybe the body is going to be ok afterall. I jog a little more and walk a little more. We get home and I do my yoga stretches outside on the back patio. I think back to something my boss said on Tuesday. He said, "well, you know if you had of finished and the race was a normal race, then it would have been just another marathon. But you weren't allowed to finish in a marathon that will probably be remembered in running history, and you were a part of it."
Wow, part of running history. Now even though that's kinda bad because a life was taken, that still kinda blows my mind, doesn't it yours? You know you'll always remember where you were when Kennedy got shot, Elvis died, the Space Shuttle exploded and of course 9/11. I guess if we all keep running, we'll always remember Chicago-2007 as our greatest challenge.
But it is what it is. It is now history and I must look forward to each day as if it were my last. Just like when that Ape guy hit Cimba with a stick in the movie LION KING. Cimba asked, "Hey what did ya do that for?" and the Ape Guy, said, "It does not matter, it is in the past!" Well, Chicago was my stick. But, just like Cimba returning to his home to reclaim his life, by going out today for a walk/light jog.....I am reclaiming my health, determination, sanity, and MY LIFE. For I am STILL a marathoner!!
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For the record, on this new journey, I still think you are awesome.
Jana
Wow! Great blog. What an awesome way to look at it! Incredible.
I'm just glad and honored to have been there with you (or atleast 2 minutes behind you!) when history was made. See ya, buddy...
Yes! Once a Marathoner -- Always a Marathoner! May we all hit the road together again in the future.
Debra
Well said, cuz. It looks like you have turned the corner.
we are still marathoners!,
is it lake kentucky or barkley, we looked at maybe buying a lot on one of those and living, but to far from the job, you HAVE to contact me when you get up, my email address is nursevicke@aol.com
Hey, let me know when you get your running club started. I want to be a part of it! Hakuna Matata, you are awesome.
I love you Kelvin!!!
That is the Kelvin i know. I agree completely that all things are relative and put it in perspective. I hope to run with you in the future. Suzanne
Great way to look at the whole situation!!! Thanks enjoyed and encouraged by this blog. I was there for this historic event.
Lee Ann
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